Change is coming. Are you ready?

This is my first blog post.  I am not sure if  anyone will read it.  I am not sure if anyone cares. I am not even sure what I am going to "blog" about.




It is Sunday night. Well I guess it is technically Monday morning. Kendall leaves for college at UTM on Thursday.


My Granny Liz is dying. She thinks it will be sooner rather than later. She is basically not eating or drinking and cant keep anything down.

My sister moved to Louisianna yesterday.

There are to many changes at once.  I am not sure where to go from here.  Kendall has been such a HUGE part of my life  for her entire life.  Though her high school years we were really close and spent a lot of time together.  I know that I will be ok and she will be ok and we will ALL be ok it is just going to take some getting used to. 
I can not put into words how proud I am of this kid.  She is not a kid anymore.  She has grown into a beautiful, smart, talented, funny, sarcastic, sometimes mean, sometimes sensitive and  always amazing young woman. It has been such an amazing thing to watch her blossom into the person she is today.  There have been ups and downs.  Amazingly wonderful periods and some really low points.  She has strength like no one else. You throw things at her and she manages. 
To say I will miss her is an understatement.  To say I am excited for her is also an understatement.

My Granny Liz is not my grandmother technically speaking.  She is my great aunt.  In my heart she is no less grandmother to me than either of my actual grandmothers. The thought of losing her breaks my heart. Watching my mother go through the pain of  this breaks it even more.  I hope that we can have her till Christmas.  I would love to have one more Thanksgiving and Christmas with her.   I guess that might sound selfish.