Sweet Sixteen

Today my sweet Conner turned sweet 16!   I can not believe it.  This is the third year that I have not been able to celebrate with her.  I did get to talk to her.  Her mom and sister do not know that I talked to her.  It is so good to hear her voice and know that she is still that goofy kid that I adore.  In two years she will be 18 and her mother will no longer have any control over if she sees us or not.  If she talks to me or not. I guess it sounds crazy but I have a countdown on my phone till that day.  730 days.  I am excited.  So is she.  We talked about that on the phone. 

There are some things in life that I just do not understand.   A person having a desire to cause other people pain is something that I do not and can not understand.  I have been in so much pain with this situation for such a long time.  It will always hurt me that I missed out on these years of her life.  I love and miss you my beautiful girl!!