I have struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember. I have felt unlovable, not good enough, ugly, dumb, and have really just hated myself because of my weight. I have given up and not cared and didnt even try to do anything about it. That has all changed.
On March 24 I joined weight watchers and started regularly using the MyFitnessPal account I setup months ago.
Now don't get the wrong idea. I have not went on some crazy strict diet. I am making lifestyle changes. I still eat what I want. Just not as much as I want. So please never ask me if I can have something. I can have whatever I want and I do. I measure and track everything I eat. I plan my meals. I know on Wednesday nights I am going to be eating out so I make sure my breakfast and lunch are fewer calorie meals than on other days.
Losing weight has been more emotional than I was prepared for. Somedays I just feel crazy. I have always been an emotional eater and I have really had to deal with that since trying to lose weight. I do not have this all figured out. Some days I think I am doing great. Some days I do not think I can keep this up. As of today I have lost 30.4 pounds. I did not think that was possible a few months ago. I do not take compliments well. SO if I offend you by that I am sorry. I do appreciate them.
There are days when I look in the mirror and I can totally tell that I am doing great and days when I look in the mirror and all I see is how much more I have to go.It is a struggle every day and sometimes every meal.
Here are a few pictures of me before I started and then the others are a few weeks ago.
